They belong to me

I miss Ryan and Brendon so much, I found a video and I can't stop watch it over and over again.
And here is a song You Belong To Me by Jason Wade, it makes me miss them more :(((

Puisi Terakhir Bapak BJ Habibie untuk Almarhumah Ibu Hasri Ainun

Sebenarnya ini bukan tentang kematianmu, bukan itu.
Karena, aku tahu bahwa semua yang ada pasti menjadi tiada pada akhirnya
dan kematian adalah sesuatu yang pasti,
dan kali ini adalah giliranmu untuk pergi, aku sangat tahu itu.

Tapi yang membuatku tersentak sedemikian hebat,
adalah kenyataan bahwa kematian benar-benar dapat memutuskan kebahagiaan dalam diri seseorang, sekejap saja, lalu rasanya mampu membuatku menjadi nelangsa setengah mati, hatiku seperti tak di tempatnya, dan tubuhku serasa kosong melompong, hilang isi.

Kau tahu sayang, rasanya seperti angin yang tiba-tiba hilang berganti kemarau gersang.
Pada airmata yang jatuh kali ini, aku selipkan salam perpisahan panjang,
pada kesetiaan yang telah kau ukir, pada kenangan pahit manis selama kau ada,
aku bukan hendak megeluh, tapi rasanya terlalu sebentar kau disini.

Mereka mengira aku lah kekasih yang baik bagimu sayang,
tanpa mereka sadari, bahwa kaulah yang menjadikan aku kekasih yang baik.
mana mungkin aku setia padahal memang kecenderunganku adalah mendua, tapi kau ajarkan aku kesetiaan, sehingga aku setia, kau ajarkan aku arti cinta, sehingga aku mampu mencintaimu seperti ini.

Selamat jalan,
Kau dari-Nya, dan kembali pada-Nya,
kau dulu tiada untukku, dan sekarang kembali tiada.

selamat jalan sayang,
cahaya mataku, penyejuk jiwaku,
selamat jalan,
calon bidadari surgaku ....

Betapa aku masih sangat jauh dari apa yang orang pikirkan tentang aku. Betapa aku masih hitam untuk bisa disandingkan dengan yang putih. Ya Allah, aku pajang setiap waktu, aku perbaiki apa yang jadi kesalahanku, semoga engkau selalu meridhoi segala jalanku..

“It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.”

Between boredom

Okay, I am bored right now. I have some fun with a web, it called MakeMeBabies.com, I upload my photos then I choose Ryan Ross as my partner and then I got my babies' faces. Try it, it is so fun hehehe
Wanna see my babies? I make baby boy and baby girl, they are sooo cute xD


Oh and I make one with Orlando Bloom xD

"If your action inspire others to dream more, learn more, do more, and become more, you are a leader" - John Q. Adams

so pretty, so smart, such a waste of a young heart

I re-blog this worss from Keltie Colleen's blog. She always arrange amazing words.
Ou yeah, you can visit her blog here. Enjoy and instantly you will fall in love with her words. I love her :)

" I am my own person and I make my own rules.

Stay true to your ideals my little army. People are going to try to change you, and pull those specail pieces of you away bit by bit, but you are who you are and stand proud in your dreams + goals + ideals, at the end of the day, what anyone else thinks of you is just mushmush and how you feel about yourself is the most important thing.

so pretty, so smart, such a waste of a young heart..."